Last night, as I put my 4 year old daughter to bed, she cried those crocodile tears b/c I refused to keep her lamp on for the night. This lamp has a story. One of the most important things on her Christmas list was a pink lamp for her room. We bought her the CUTEST foo foo pink lamp we could find adorned with pink diamond beads, feathers, and glitter. She LOVES it! Ever since she got this lamp she insists she is scared of monsters and we must keep it on. This has gone on for about a month and silly me.. just realized exactly what that sneaky girl was up to. She stays up playing with barbies, changing into dress up clothes, reading, anything she pleases.
Last night, I put my foot down. She pokes that lip out, throws herself on the bed, and lets out the most pathetic little cries any Momma has heard! I felt horrible, thinking, maybe she REALLY is scared of monsters so I brought out the big guns… the magic monster-go-away spray. Just as I lifted my old hairspray bottle up into the air and brought my finger to spray she says, “STOP MOMMA! I’m really not scared of the dark or monsters. I just like staying up to read and play.. do you forgive me?” It amazes me b/c for a minute there she actually believed the lie that she had been telling us for the last month. She cried at the thought of having that security lamp off, but after thinking about it remembered she has never been scared of the dark.
The point of my monster saga is this: Sometimes we distort the truth to ourselves, to gain comfort and freedom. We think it won’t hurt a soul. I mean, we’re only telling it to ourselves and maybe a select few in our inner circle. The longer we live that lie out the more we believe it.
I’ll use myself as an example (I have many, but will use the less embarrassing one). I like to run. In fact, I can get lost in a 2 hour jog if I had the time and babysitter. I’ve told myself, since moving to Charlotte, “Well, I’m still an active healthy runner. It’s just been so cold and rarely do I have someone to watch the kids. I could run a 5k tomorrow if I wanted. I’m still in great shape.” WELL, after telling Zach goodbye at the bus stop I started on my morning jog. I reached the point where I can go right–takes me on an hour run or left-takes me on a 20 minute run. Guess which one I chose? THE 20 MINUTE one! I was hurting like I haven’t hurt before! Until this morning I thought I COULD just jump back into running with no problem. I thought I COULD just take a month off w/o feeling the consequences. I told myself that lie for so long I believed it ..till this morning that is.
I used a very small example, but we all know some of the lies we tell ouselves are bigger. They fall into categories such as guilt, deceit, anger, lust, greed. We choose to tell ourselves lies so we don’t have to face the consequences.
What kind of lamp do you have on? It could be a simple sleek floor lamp or one dressed up with pink diamonds and feathers. Whatever your style, it’s time to turn it off.
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