It’s Saturday morning and in the hopes that I could sleep in a bit, I heard cries from Rudy’s crib at 7:30 this morning. That’s later than my usual 5:30 when I have to get Zach up and ready for school. So, in reality I DID get to sleep in… just not as much as I wanted. I started to get up in a very very grumpy mood, but instead just took a deep breath and tried to make the best of it. As soon as I got some coffee I’d feel better.
I decided to make the kids a BIG breakfast.. just to show them I love ’em. That’s sweet right? Well, Abby insisted she only wants eggs & bisquits. Zach insisted that he only wants sausage & bisquits. I thought to myself “that’s fine.” I made just enough for them to have what they want and a little of everything for myself. Still in a good mood. Still smiling.
Well, about 5 minutes later Abby realized we were out of grape juice. She ran to her room, got clothes on, and cried that we HAD to go to the store AT THAT VERY MOMENT! This was no ordinary cry. This was an all out stomping feet, throwing arms down, tears, and yells kind of cry. I lost it! I mean, how DARE her throw demands at me and then proceed to yell and cry?!!!! I’m the Momma and we’re not going!!!!! Why is it sooo important to have grape juice BEFORE we even eat?! After she calmed down she says, “Mom, I’m sorry, but I wanted to drink the grape juice with my breakfast.” I, reluctantly, accepted her apology, but with no smile.
A few minutes go by and I hear her singing a very familiar song. “You know just how FARRRR the East is from the West!” If you listen to contemporary Christian music you know exactly what song that is. It melted my heart.
Fast forward to eating breakfast at the table. We sit to eat this wonderful breakfast. Once we say Grace Abby says, “Where is MY sausage?” Zach says, “Where is my eggs?” WHAT?!!!!!!!!! Each of you said you only wanted eggs OR sausage, but not both! I gave them my portion and then it happened… the grumpiness fell upon me. WHY IN THE WORLD DO THEY DO THIS TO ME?! THEY MAKE ME WORK DOUBLE HARD! THEY TELL ME ONE THING AND IT MEANS ANOTHER!! IT’S ALL THEIR FAULT THAT I WILL END UP WITH OATMEAL AND COFFEE INSTEAD!
But is it? Who in their right mind WOULDN’T know that when children sit and eat they’ll see more food.. it’ll look good.. and they’ll want it. Am I really listening to them? When I heard Abby’s fit it angered me! When all of a sudden there wasnt’ enough food for me it angered me! If I was a smart Momma I would have ignored their request to begin with and make enough food in the first place.. I would have heard, “Mom, I’m saying I dont’ want sausage, b/c it doesn’t sound good, but I’d like to give it at try. If I don’t like it I don’t want you to get upset and make me eat it anyway.” That is what they were trying to tell me!!!!!!!! I’m NOT listening!!!!
Do you ever think God feels the same way? He is trying his hardest to convey his message to us through experience, struggles, friends, prayer, anything he can use to talk to us. Do we usually listen? Have we learned to listen? Or are we too consumed with how much sleep we DIDN’T get so when He does talk, we’re too busy to hear what he is REALLY telling us. It takes us runnning out of food for ourselves for it to sink in.
I have definatly been off track with my prayer and Bible reading. Too many things have happened since moving to Charlotte. So, when God spoke to me this week I heard it. I heard just a little bit though. I still need to pray for Wisdom with this particular issue, but He spoke. I heard it. We went to church Sunday and the message was phenomeonal! Pastor Todd spoke about decision making. His reference was the book of Daniel , particularly Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.. us Momma’s know them at Rack, Shack, & Benny. Well, a few days later before I opened my Bible I prayed for God to speak to me.. to give me wisdom in the passage I was about to read. I had no particular passage I WANTED to read, but just randomly opened my Bible. Where do you think it opened? The book of Daniel, chapters 3 and 4… the blazing furnace. These three men were thrown in there b/c they refused to bow down to the statue of Nebuchadnezzar. They knew it would be a sin to worship anything, but God. They were thrown in this horrible fire and still they walked around in there unharmed. God protected them for being faithful to Him.
Have you ever felt like you were THROWN in the furnace? Maybe by an incident that happend or maybe by someone you love? How did you overcome it? Or have you? I know God will save me from my furnace. He wants me to put my armour on and rely on Him to protect me. I have to be Faithful! There is no “well it’s not fair so I have to act this way” there is no “why don’t you throw the person who wronged me in the furnace and test him”… the fact of the matter is IF you were about to be thrown in what would you do? Would you passively bow down so not to risk the pain of the fire? Or would you stick to what you know is God’s word and fully rely on Him to protect you?
Not only did God bring me to this passage for my own sake, but I think he wants me to study the book of Daniel more. I’m getting some girls together to start a Bible Study and have been going back and forth between which study we should do. I wrote a good friend, and wonderful Bible teacher, and asked her for suggestions on studies. She referred me to several that sound right up our alley, but this morning a Beth Moore study came to mind. .. the study on Daniel. Is it the right one for this group? I don’t know. Maybe it’s not. Maybe we need something lighter like a book by Lisa Whelchel (she is a great teacher with a wonderful sense of humor to lighten ANY Momma’s mood). I’m sure He will speak to me again and I will have my ears and heart open and ready to listen.
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